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Tuesday, May 31, 2011

17 Weeks and Counting

Hi all,
Its time for another update.
I am 17 weeks as of today. I am doing well, although I still havent gained any weight. I am barely starting to show though. I was a fatty to start out, so I think this is normal. I cant wait until people will think i am actually pregnant and not just fat. LOL
Recent changes in my body have been stupid stuff like a runny nose that wont end, I am tired (which hasnt changed) and my back is starting to hurt. I am also not sleeping as comfortably as I used to and I know that its only going to get worse. I could get to sleep last night until 2am. LAME... I bought a body pillow for 20 dollars compared to the baby sleep pillow which was like 50. Its helping a bit.

We should be finding out the sex of the baby, hopefully this saturday. If not, then I am going to go get a 3d and be done with it. I am so excited. We want a boy so bad, that I have a feeling its going to be a girl.
I have had some really odd dreams recently. I dreamt that someone was threatening to cut my baby out of me.. which actually happened in an episode of Private Practice and Erik thinks it was just my subconcious thinking of the show.. who knows, either way I woke up and was like WTF!?!

There are so many of us pregnant right now.. Theres three that I know of all due within two weeks of when I am due. pretty crazy and exciting. Play dates, here we come!

I dont know if I mentioned this in my last post, but I found out I get 5 months paid maternity leave which is pretty damn awesome. I also received my review and a very nice raise (imo). My company has started to give me more responsibilities and thank god they are a little more complicated than what I was doing before.. I was almost falling asleep at my desk before. I am thankful that they see the potential and have listened to me in the fact that I want to do something more.

Bean (or Chihuahua) is doing much better. The cast on his leg has been taken off and he is running around like a crazy dog again. (not that his cast kept him from jumping off the couch after his brother anyway)

I feel like there is still so much to do before the baby comes and then I realize I have another 3 months or so and I stop hyperventating and take a deep breathe. So much to do. Our apt is not nearly big enough for the three adults and two dogs, let alone a baby and all the things that come with. We have to move somewhere larger to just fit. Somewhere more inland for sure, cause we sure as shit cant afford to live here with a baby.
I am going to continue to work where I work after my maternity leave is over and that is also something we have to figure out. Who is going to take care of my 4.5 month old for 9 hours a day while I work? so many things to work out...

Anyways, its almost 11 and if I want any sleep at all, I should probably try now..
Goodnight yo... Belly pics soon enough.

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

13 Weeks

As of yesterday, I am 13 weeks preggers. This saturday we find out if it is a boy or girl. That is, if the baby cooperates and shows that side of it. I am hoping to God it does, because I need to know what colors I am using for its bedding. I am planning on making the nursery set and making everything possible. The ideas are endless!! Here's a picture of the baby at 11 weeks. It's amazing how clear the ultrasound is.


There seems to be just a ton of crap going on in my life right now.
Yesterday was my one year anniversary at my job and I havent gotten a review yet. This has happened to me at every single job I have ever had. It drives me fucking nuts that companies dont have their shit together enough to pay attention to their employees achievements. I understand the big boss is busy trying to open a couple new offices. I am only asking for 15 mins. Yell at me, praise me, encourage me,something! Tell me if I am getting a raise and if so how much? I just dont want to be anxious about it anymore. At my last job, I literally waited 6 months for my one year review. thankfully, they back paid my raises, but shit.

onto another subject:
My puppy Bean (Mr. Refried Bean), was running and ran around behind his crate and clipped his hind left knee on the corner of his crate. He broke a piece of the bone off in his knee area. We took him to an emergency vet on Saturday night. That short visit cost us close to 400 dollars. We were told he needed surgery and pins put in the bone to make him be able to walk again. That was going to cost us 4000 up front. Yeah, um, theres no way in hell we have that. Freaking out, I called a friend who knows a ton about dogs and horses. She referred me to a vet in Garden Grove. Dr. Grant with the Community Veteranarian Hospital quoted us 2000 up front. We tried everything imagineable. Trying to get grants, loans, credit, anything. It turns out a friend of ours (who wishes to remain anonymous) offered to pay for it as a favor. That person is amazing and has no idea what a huge deal this is. I had people telling me to put Bean to sleep. I could never do that. I would have sold everything I owned just to fix that little guys leg. He had the surgery yesterday and is back home... see the baby:


Other than those things, life is good.

Thursday, March 24, 2011

Update on baby (7 weeks)

I am now 7 weeks preggers and everything is going well. I've only felt sickles a couple times and that was picking up my dogs poop and driving long distance very slowly in traffic.
I got a call from my docs office the other day. My blood work came back and everything is fine. I'm healthy and all my levels look good.
I have had some cravings. Mostly for fatty stuff. Twix and cheeseburgers are high up on the list. I have only given in a couple times.
I've been super emotional lately thinking of how my Gramps won't be here to see my baby. My niece was the light of his life, and I wish that we could have had more great grandbabies to bring him joy. I miss him so much. I talk to him through god in my prayers and I update him on the baby. I believe that he's here with me, but it doesn't make the pain go away.
I also am worried that my dad won't make it home to see the birth of his grandkid. Him being so far away has been really hard too. Shit, I'm tearing up now. Damn hormones.

We r currently looking for a house of some sort that does not have stairs, cause I am not going to be able to make it up the stairs very well, once I get much bigger. We also have two chihuahua puppies that are very energetic, so we need a yard or a big patio for them, because we can't have them going crazy around a newborn. Anyone know of any decently priced three bedrooms in orange county. Wait a sec, that might just be asking too much!

Work is good, I've been covering a desk in our Mission Viejo office this week, while a coworker has been on vacation. I can't wait to get back to my desk. It has been nice seeing some of my old coworkers from before our office split, but the commute sucks balls.

I got a flat tire this week too. A friend graciously paid for me to get another tire, because I don't have any money until I get paid again. There are almost three weeks between paychecks this month, so we are struggling something fierce. My friend is so sweet. I won't mention a name, because I think she wishes for it to remain between us. I can say this, I am so glad to have met her and to have her support. She was appalled when I told her I was driving on a donut to mission viejo. Love her!

Anyways, I need to get to bed. Greasy anatomy and Private Practice were really good tonight. Woohoo!
Good night world

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

We are PREGNANT!

Who woulda thunk it would only take two months to get pregnant after being on Birth Control for 12 YEARS!?!!! I certainly didnt. I thought it would take a year or more.
Erik and I had a huge St. Patty's Day BBQ and I had planned a day of drunken debauchery. The day before, on the way home from work, I got an idea. I should probably take a pregnancy test and make sure I'm not going to jack up a baby with my drinking. I had noticed a couple changes in my body and was hopefull, but cautious. Well, it turns out I am pregnant!
I am six weeks and 1 day today. I went to my doc today (thanks for the referal Sis). This doc is amazing! First thing he did was sit me down in his little office and ask me if I had any questions. I questioned him like a drill seargent and he smiled while answering everything.
He took ultrasounds and determined that I am due on 11-8-2011. I am going to try for a delivery date of 11-1-11 or 11-11-11. I think that would be cool. If it is a boy and he's born on one of those days, I think I might have to call him Ace. LMAO.
We have names picked out mostly. I'm not going to share just quite yet.
Tonight we went to Babies R Us and looked at all the options for furniture and strollers, etc. There is some super cute stuff out there. It is also super pricey! Thankfully I can make some of my own stuff like the bedding, etc.
This is the baby! Its the little tiny gray thing inside the circle to the right. The doc showed me its heart beating. I cried.. Sniff Sniff.
Hubby has been super supportive. Making sure I eat right and packing me breakfast and snacks. I rarely used to eat Breakfast, but I'm afraid if I dont now, Erik will kick my ass (proverbially). He basically would do anything for me. Not letting me lift things and such. So cute. He was good to me before, but dang! Love him!!
Work is being supportive. All my coworkers are excited for me and it's really nice knowing that I have that happiness around me all the time.
There are a couple people in my life who are not happy that I am pregnant. But, let me tell you this: This pregnancy was planned. It was not something Erik and I took lightly. If you dont like it, then you can piss off or keep your damn mouth shut. I am not about to start feeling depressed because someone doesnt like something that wont affect them at all. I'm sorry, but thats how I feel.
This baby will be loved, cherished, nourished and cared for deeply.
I should probably go to bed! eek its Midnight..
love to you all.
Damara

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

My Craft Room / Studio

As of about a week and a half ago, my mom and brothers have moved onto bigger and better things. My mom found a place in Hemet for a sweet price. She really likes it, although she says my brothers are seriously homesick. I cant blame them. I am sure I will feel the same way when we eventually move out the area. That's going to suck!!
When we originally decided to move into a 2 bedroom apt, I decided I wanted to use the other room for a sewing/craft room. Needless to say, things went south and the room was in use until last week. I just barely got to start using it. I have finally finished setting up and used it for the first time last night, if only to take in my sister's shirt. It was so nice to not have to lug out my sewing machine and set it all up just to do one little sewing job. Everything is layed out and ready for me to use. See: Thats my sewing desk. I took an old camping fold up table and covered with with teal spandex with my staple gun. I love how it turned out. Its so bright!
This is my scrapbooking desk to the right in the picture and to the left is my Cricut station.
This is my cutting table/Station. It will be so nice to not have to lay out fabric on the floor and be on my hands and knees killing my back, just to cut out a pattern, or to draw one.


I have a stereo set up on a shelf, so I can be rocking some tunes while working away.


All in all, I am very happy with the set up. I think tomorrow, I will start working on this dress I have designed for myself. I am making it with some fabric that I bought at Mood. I loved that store. The only problem, is that that are so expensive!! It's fun knowing that I am using the same kind of fabric that the contestants on Project Runway use.
That is all for now. I will continue to post updates on the dress and any other crafts I am working on.
Toodalooo!


Saturday, December 18, 2010

We have PUPPIES!!


So apparently I'm a bad mama cause I haven't posted anything about our two new babies. We got them in October at two months old. Their names are Mr. Refried Bean and Encharito. They are chihuahuas. So freaken cute! This is when we first got them:This is EncharitoThis is Mr. Refried BeanWhen they were two months old at Canyon Lake.

On to other stuff.

My mom and brothers are still living with us. My brother will be out on the 1st and I am not sure when my mom will be out. I cant wait till its just Erik and I and the babies. I miss having a sense of privacy at all. I get so frustrated sometimes that I flip out and I feel super bad afterwards.

My work had our Holiday party on the 10th at Scott's restaurant. It was a lot of fun. I am so lucky to have some awesome coworkers. I truly feel like our bosses have chosen people that mesh well together. The food and drinks were delicious. The raffle was fun. I pulled a friend of mines ticket to win a canon digital camera. My supervisor pulled my ticket to win an iPad. I didn't know I needed an iPad until I won one. That thing is awesome. At the end of the night, the VP and the owner of our company were saying goodbye to each individual person and handing us an envelope with our bonuses in them. HOLY SHIT! My bonus was awesome. I was not even expecting one in the first place. Let's just say, I am a very happy employee. They told me I was doing a fantastic job and that our new client is in love with me. Woot!

My poor hubby works in the retail industry and is now working overnights for the holiday season. I miss him a lot. He's at work right now.

My girl friends and I had our annual xmas nacho dinner. It was fun. This year, our other halves were invited too. Got some cool stuff and dinner was good. It's always good to see my two besties. We don't see either other often enough at all.

Went to shinai last night. It was so much fun. I haven't fought in over a year and so I am hurting now pretty good. Totally worth it though. We had a pretty good turnout. We went to the bar afterwards and played some pool and had a couple drinks. I miss the shinai crowd. Its been too long! I think there is a New Year's party in the mix for some shinai people. I am excited for that. i don't think i did anything for New Year's last year.

Erik and I are going to Big Bear the weekend of January 15th. When we went on the last Labor day weekend for my birthday, we loved it so much, that we decided we might like to move there. So we are going back to see if we can handle the weather and then we will decide if are going to move there. We cant live in HB forever. Its just too expensive. We are still up in the air as to where we like to settle down at. I really love my job, so hopefully I can find somewhere that they either have a branch, or I can telecommute. Who knows how long from now that all this will happen.

Anyways, I need to get to bed so I can wake up at a decent time. Peace out!

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

current happenings

today i havent taken my lunch at work until 323pm and i get off at 5. its almost like whats the point. im in my truck chillaxen with my kindle ad reflecting on the going-ons in our life.
we just moved into this great two br apt in hb about two blocks from our last place. im finally going to have a craft room-that is once my mom moves out. ugh. shes down on hard times and i hope she gets a job soon and can figure their shit out.
we really just need a break from everything. were supposed to be in the honeymoon stage of our marriage but i swear if its not one thing its another. cant we catch a break. i go home and feel guilty that i have a good job and can afford to live where we do. everytime i bring something new home its like my mom loks at me with sadness or anger that i can spend money like that. i dont think she realized she does it or how hard i have worked to get to this point. it doesnt just happen overnight. i have worked in this industry for 7+ years now. holy crap i didnt realize its bee that long. im even still good friends with my first boss. thats awesome.
ok so enough ranting.
erik took me out to dave and busters on friday night and we just let loose and had a really good time. we really needed it. just time to focus on us for once. i really love my husband. he is sticking by my side even thugh my mom and brothers moving in, even though hes miserable, the complaing is minimal. how did i get to be so lucky to find a man like him. i guess i had to go through some crappy ones to find prince charming.

Saturday, August 28, 2010

We Have Figured Out

what to do with our financial situation. It will be hard for a little while, but then its going to get SO MUCH BETTER! We will be able to save some money for the future to be able to have a little one of our own. I cant wait to pop one out.
I literally started crying earlier today while watching Cheaper By The Dozen 2. In the end of the movie, the oldest sister gives birth to a little boy. I dont know what came over me, but I started crying cause I wanted to have one too. I am ridiculous, I know. Erik was sad..
Hubby and I went to our friend Therese's birthday party at Dave and Buster's last night. It was so much fun. We had dinner and played a ton of games. Therese had a good time too. I was happy to see her so happy. I hope she uses our gift well. I am sure she will though.. Wink Wink.. We are going to try to fly up to Washington to visit her in a couple months.
Right now my little brother is over and having dinner with us and we are probably going to kill some zombies on the XBOX 360. Woohoo!
This coming week is going to be crazy..
On Thursday, my work is hosting a booze cruise for all of their associates. That will be fun. Its good to be appreciated. I have also been told by a couple different people in the company, that my efforts have not gone unnoticed! woot!
Saturday, my Aunt Becky, Aunt DeeAnn, and Grandma Meri are flying into town and we are having a family bbq. I cant wait to see all of them. Especially my Aunt DeeAnn. I havent seen her in many many years. I hope her sons, my cousins, are coming, too! I miss them! After the bbq in Lake Elsinore, we are leaving for Big Bear for a vacation for three days. My 26th birthday is on Sunday so it will be nice to celebrate, just the two of us in a cabin with a fireplace directly in front of the jacuzzi in the cabin. CANT WAIT!! So romantic! Going to try fishing for the first time too. Erik cant wait for that. Just relaxation and quiet will be much appreciated.
Anyways, I am going to eat dinner now.. Hope all are well. Catch up later on...

Saturday, August 7, 2010

Quick Update

Things are going ok right now. My job is going great. I really like it and I am impressing the boss man. W00T!
My mom has finally moved out of her house. She is working on her independence for the first time in her life and I pray that everything works out for her. It seems like everyone is moving away from Huntington Beach. I think we will do the same eventually. We have to sign another lease for now to keep our rent decent. If we were to go month to month, we would have to pay an additional 400.00 a month. screw that!
Erik and I are doing well. I read a book called The Proper Care and Feeding of Husbands. Man, did that book open my eyes to some things I didnt realize I was doing wrong.


Currently waiting for brother in laws wife to pop their son out and Eriks other sibling, Nichole to pop her girl out. LOL. Two babies in like 2 months, and we have none. I am getting used to the idea that its just not going to happen for awhile. We need to grow up financially before I can pop one out. We have no one we can count on to financially back us up if we fail. Therefore, we cannot actually have a baby until we are 100% sure that we can hack it on our own. It makes me sad.

We are working on getting out of debt for good in the near future. Not sure exactly how its going to happen or when, but I am trying to remain positive.
We are still trying to figure out where we would like to move to and settle down. The only reasons I had for staying in Huntington Beach, was my family. They have all moved out from here. So now, even though I cant handle the weather in Indio, we will probably end up moving inland somewhere.
Peace out, til next time. in a month or so.. ha ha ha